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[he's all ready decided, but he's just saying it out loud now] I'll go talk to him, I'll try to reason with him, even if he won't listen right away. I stayed away too much, because I thought I had to get myself out before I could get him out. I got too comfortable, even if it did hurt being away from him like that.

[to Erika] You know this person he's become better than I do. What approach would you take if you were me?

[She has to think about it for a moment, hands folding behind her back and head bowing. At least it seems like she's taking this seriously - and she is. Wrong moves will have a ripple effect.]

...First, I will note this event wasn't a quiet one. Those around the church know Mikado's name as he wants it to be known and that event caused both a little hero worship and new grudges. [Not asking him to lie for her but she figures he's smart enough to know that her reporting on everyone to everyone else would quickly cut off information.]

If I had your advantage, I would touch on his emotions. I would point out that I understand why he needs to gain control and power to protect his friends but to be very careful in how he does. Mikado...wouldn't want to become that sort of person who hurts others. He's an idealist. Those are dangerous when they can justify their actions. Trapping him in his emotions would mean he can't.

[Lifting her head, she doesn't seem satisfied with her own answer.]

When you're apart, he might forget. So try to be logical as well. What good is the ability to protect others is the cost to gain it is too high? That all said...there is a very unpredictable element. Mikado doesn't like being normal. He does and doesn't. But it's easier to get addicted to new things than to remember the comfort of the old ones.

[Kida nods]

Thanks, Erika-chan. I'll keep that all in mind. I shouldn't have given him as much space as I did. That was my mistake, but I'll work to fix it now.

Be careful with your words and emotions. Keep a tighter leash on him. Visiting him will help as well to remind him of the person he is inside. It is true that I'm encouraging some of the wrong things. But I am trying as well. Unfortunately, I'm only human and not a very good one.

You might not be a very good person, but you're the best person to help me out with this, no matter what I said earlier. 'Thank you,' Erika-chan. Please keep him from crossing a line he can't uncross.

If I'm the best, that really is troubling. [She smiles anyway.] The day he insisted on rescuing you, I made sure to be the only one with blood on my hands. I will at least continue to do that. You can't tell with all the other stains.

If he's allowing you to do that kind of thing for him, it's on his hands, too. I might want to protect him from some things, but if he's allowing things like that, he needs to know it's wrong.

I'm certain he does know it's wrong. But emotions can be valuable with morality. His really are weaker without you around. He is still certainly that ridiculous, kind, easily flustered boy but the quiet, logical side is stronger. Though, you can't always be together. This is a riddle you will need to solve to keep him 'Mikado' all the time.

Have you figured out the answer to that riddle yet?

[She shakes her head.] Most solutions are impractical. You can't always be with someone. If it really is only being together physically, then even I can't think of a viable solution. But there are probably angles I can't think of that you might know.

I'm clueless as far as this goes. Maybe something good might come of Mikado hanging out with those people, if he can figure out a way to make this not so weird all the time.

Baseless optimism is dangerous. The premise breaks down quickly when you realise he isn't working very hard to stay 'normal.'

[laughs and pets her head] On the bright side, we'll probably never have to worry about baseless optimism from you.

[he can't stop worrying about Mikado though] I'm definitely going to see him and talk to him.

[Pettings are nice. She relaxes a little from it, blinking slowly.]

I am only interested in the truth. ...I hope he listens to you.

Me too. If not, maybe you could use your womanly charms on him and seduce him into being smart and safe.

Seduction would have an unfortunate effect on his intelligence from my observations.

That's true, that's true. Maybe it's only initially though. Once he finally lets himself be seduced he might have a complete turn around.

That would only work if you helped me. I think you have a better shot than I do. Besides, all my womanly charm is reserved at the moment.

Oh yeah? Where are you spending all that womanly charm of yours that you can't contribute it to Mikado's development?

On a certain hopeless Chosen. You can laugh at me if you want.

[scoffs] That guy? Really?

Yes. I have a lot of fun with him. He isn't as terrible as I am but he likes me anyway. Of course, nothing will probably come of it because of his commitment issues but that is fine for now. [She waves a hand.] I doubt you're very interested in my love life or lack therefore. But he does worry about me if you ever want to use it against him.

He has enough shortcomings that I wouldn't have to use you. Thanks anyway though.

He really does, doesn't he? Try not to worry him too much.

[looking at her even more skeptically] That's not really something anyone needs to worry about, 'I promise.'