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[Today is a terrible day! You do not know why it's a terrible day, but it is. Everything's ominous and you've probably walked into ten tables and door frames and couldn't find your favorite coat and perhaps even got robbed by a hobo. Either way, your luck is terrible! Enjoy it! Or not. Because it'll get worse.

Meanwhile in Michi's residence, a corpse has disappeared. Corpses do not usually get up and wander away. This one did and is found standing in the middle of the street staring at nothing. It is almost as terrible as your day is, and you simultaneously run away and get closer.

Both of these are terrible ideas, but there is no correlation between them whatsoever. You're silly to think that way! Go enjoy your terrible day! However you wish to.

But no really, to anyone who comes over there is nothing but terrible here. And up to three bingo squares. Have fun guys.]

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[The only way he knows how to help is by making offers and Michi rejected the only thing he has left to give. But Michi's already made it pretty clear that this... weird... thing, is good enough for her.

And so they will both explore the disease of friendship together and he will ~~try to~~ stop making terrible offers to her.]

Then it's all right.

[And normally this would be the part where the audience goes 'awww' at their display of fluffernutters friendship, except this is a Minus and someone who may as well be. Minus, not a Minus.

Not the point of this anyway. She's Michi, ever ~~selfishly~~ thoughtful, so she has to ask -]

... Is that all right for you as well?

[It's a wonderful friendship if you can squint past how terrible they are. And allow these brackets to help your eyesight and tell you no, you're not gonna see it, just go away you Plus-minded assholes!

And her question gets a shrug. And he is totally ~~not~~ being a kind person here.]

I'm all right with it. But I still need to go through with this.

[He's all right with it.

He's all right with her.

Luckily for him, there's a whole table between them, but if he watches, he can see her face just light up, the way it does when she gets excited and forgets he's not good at hugging.]

If you've gotten full, then please feel free to continue! I only wanted to be certain that you'd eaten.

[The blank smile is in place despite the dead eyes watching her. Mentally, he makes a note to thank the table profusely for saving him the stress of two hugs in one day. His heart would give out at that rate.]

Ah, I'm in no rush. My reason to care is gone. [~Charisma~ ...Wait no, charisma is hard when you're unmotivated, bluhhh.] These people like closure to their suffering. So someone can kill me, I guess.

[~*~BOREDOM~*~]

[what -]

... Has something happened? You seemed so intent previously.

[Freezing and glancing at her in faint confusion.]

Hm? [Oh. The reason. Haha it's dumb so nope he has his reputation to keep. ...Okay no, it's just embarrassing.] I'm just a capricious person.

... Are you all right?

It hardly seems very much like you to reject an opportunity to cause suffering.

Hey now. It's hard on me too you know. They should appreciate all the work I'm putting into this.

... Is their suffering not appreciation enough, Kumagawa?

[Do you... want them to say thank you or something...]

I'd like to be paid minimum wage for my efforts.

[Normally, that flippant handwave means sparkles and charisma. Currently it has neither, but it still means he's kidding.]

Hmm...

[The little handwave means she actually catches it. Oh, okay. He doesn't literally want any money. She can joke too though! She, she has feelings and a sense of humor, she can do this!]

Father would be quite cross if he realized that I was using his money to pay you, so I suppose that a miniskirt will have to suffice!

[She can't keep a straight face when she says it, though. It cracks into a smile at the edges. It's ridiculous and it'll never happen, but he'd never go for it anyway.]

Michi, please. What if the maids were to hear you? Your father thinks I've ruined you for marriage. Please don't make him think I'm some kind of sexual deviant on top of it.

Besides, miniskirts are out of season. Naked aprons in a warm kitchen are better for the winter, hm?

[When he says everything in that odd deadpanned tone, Michi can now file it away that every time he says anything like that, it's an obvious joke. She can translate him yet!]

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He has no intention of permitting me to marry.

[She says it very matter-of-factly, like she's clarifying the time.]

-- In addition, that was a joke! I could never wear something so lacking!

Who cares what he says. If you ever want to then go ahead.

More importantly, I know you were joking. You don't have to expose your cards so fast, Michi.

For what reason would anyone want to marry me?

[It took her this long just to make friends. It'll never happen.

But she looks a little embarrassed at the second bit. Oops. :x]

-- Oh! Of course, I was aware that you knew! It was a test.

Because they would love every part of you exactly as you are.

[For someone so blatantly negative and disgusting, hearing him understand something like love is pretty impressive.

~~It's Ajimu's fault.~~

And her embarrassment is amusing, but he doesn't call her out on it.] I'm glad I passed. Next time make the test harder.

[And she just stares at him for a good long while, trying to process that. Like this is hundreds of years earlier and he just told her the earth is actually round. She can't wrap her mind around this concept.

The idea of someone loving her romantically, not the idea of unconditional love. Her father hasn't thrown her out yet despite his best interests. She gets that.]

... I don't understand.

[She gets a similar stare for a bit, and the only thought he has that pops up is "pffffft--haha Liam good luck you poor bastard".

But that's for observer eyes only. Michi needs a more subtle word. And he closes his eyes and pictures someone else.]

It's hard to understand. Sometimes you don't even notice until later. But love... it's someone who accepts every part of you, even your bad traits, and you know everything about them back. Where even if they die, a part of your heart will always be reserved for them.

[He doesn't mention the parts where you start hallucinating them and they kick you into walls while making victory signs any time you ask for a favor. Let Michi learn about married life when she's the one doing the kicking.]

[Shut up Kumagawa you don't know his life!!!!

But yeah. Good luck, bless his heart. She purses her lips, thinking on this as hard as she possibly can -- she understands it. She understands love, and how people love each other. She loves her father and them. She loves Kumagawa, and Liam, and Christopher. Between Kumagawa and her father and her grandparents and the books in their library, she understands romantic love. Kumagawa loves Ajimu and her father loved her mother and her grandparents loved each other. Different from how she feels. It's a fine little line.

So it's... a possibility for someone else to love her, and for her to love someone else, like what they have? She hits a roadblock there. It doesn't make any sense. What idiot would waste their precious time and money courting this? There are hundreds of thousands of smarter, prettier, saner women out there.

So a little half-heartedly, even if she tries to hide it some of it seeps into her tone -]

Oh...! Yes, I see. That certainly does sound wonderful. It incorporates elements of friendships, but is even more intimate!

[He can see the exact moment her understanding of the subject hits the brick wall of her own self-esteem. It also means she gets a brief glimpse of how dangerous of a friend she just made, because in that second of sight is when a hand is in front of her face, pointed in the universal sign of STOP. God damn Minus stop being fast enough to move between panels.]

What I say here is never to be used against me. Okay?

[She's probably going to use it against him anyway. Stupid friends.] With that one person, your flaws 'become nothing'.

[Then there's another panel jump and he's back in his seat, hands steepled and perfectly deadpan.] But you're right. Sometimes the one you love is your closest friend.

[He's right across the table, so it's easy for him to notice her shoulders rising up with the sudden movement -- he surprised her, a little. Cut it out.]

-- I understand. But, I'm...

[A monster? An abomination against God? Something that shouldn't exist? All of the above?]

A human.

[Finished right after her hesitation, finishing the sentence easily. And the smile afterward is horrifying, subjectively, but is objectively completely honest.]

-- Ah...

[Right. She said that herself. Christopher's as human as him or her. She meant it as a compliment.

.......... But she wasn't expecting it to be used against her like this, don't be a jerk, Kumagawa.]

... Yes.

I'll try...

[He didn't mean for it to be used like a fired bullet. It was just a stupidly honest observation and he gives a listless shrug after.]

You're a better optimist than me. You'll remember it.