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Just one wish for a miracle Repeated the tragedies

[There is nothing unusual about today, except maybe some nicer than average weather. It means being outside isn't a lung hazard and thus a good enough day for walking around. Mikado has already done a lot of research on business - and Lion has done her own amount - but more isn't going to hurt anything. The more the better.

Though not all of Lion's focus is on that. Some of it is still lingering on some books she read last night. They referenced yet another few that would be good to read for background and well, Lion has been devouring books lately. Even the business isn't enough distraction.

So possibly in the middle of conversation, with her thoughts scattered, Lion turns to Mikado.] Would you mind if we made a stop first? It isn't very far.

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That's why you need someone to acknowledge your magic.

[Idly, as she pulls a book down to flip through it out of curiosity.]

Beatrice acknowledged Maria-chan's creations as real. Together they had a universe where they had no doubts or fears. To put it in romantic terms...if I love Will and never do anything to deepen a relationship with him, I have a universe in my heart that's too heavy for me alone. Eventually it might collapse or twist into something I can bear. But if I tell him and he loves me, too, then that love is acknowledged and real. It's no longer something only I hold but held and nurtured between us. And if we tell everyone that we share feelings and they see us together, they acknowledge it, too. More people agree it is truth and so it is real.

I see. That makes sense. Even in normal every day things, having someone to acknowledge and support you is important.

When I moved to Ikekuburo... I don't think I would have been able to adapt to the city or my fears if not for Masaomi. He really supported me. In that way I definitely understand. Without someone to share your thoughts and experiences with, magic or not, it's no good anyway, right? People aren't really meant to be alone.

[Lion smiles softly and slips the book away into her bag. Not what she was looking for but she'll take a few extra. And it's hard to think too deeply on things when Mikado says something sweet like that.]

...Right. Magic or not, people want to be acknowledged and share a universe with someone else. People spend their lives looking for that person or persons who can look into their heart and understand it. Someone who will accept them. ...Hearing about you two is always nice. I know no matter what, you'll always share your hearts with each other.

Love is the single element in the universe, you know. [She leans down to look at a new row of books.] Whether it's magic or just humans...without love, you won't understand.

[Completely missing the shipping, Mikado nods, smiling.]

Yeah. I think that's right. Well, Masaomi's been my friend forever. It's hard to consider not having him around. Even when he left we kept in touch online.

Though what do you mean...? [About love that is. But here..]

...Is this it?

[Mikado holds up a book that meets Lion's description, but isn't what she's looking for.]

[Lion takes the offered book and glances through it. She shakes her head but keeps it anyway to check it out. Magic reading is interesting okay.

And she smiles at him.] It's a saying I've heard a lot back home. 'Without love, it can't be seen.' 'It' meaning the truth. The truth about a person or an event... it doesn't mean letting yourself be blinded by love, of course. But rather considering someone's heart when thinking about why they act the way they do or the life they choose to live. I think you understand very well, though. I might not know everything but you obviously care so much for Masaomi-san. You can understand his heart. Loving and understanding someone doesn't mean excusing them but more important it means accepting them.

[She pulls another book down and beams.] Ah, this is it.

[He stands since she found the right one after all.]

I'm... Not so sure. I used to think I understood Masaomi... Well it's not like I think I don't any more either, but...

[He shakes his head, dismissing it. He doesn't need to air his insecurities at Lion.]

Shall we go?

Yes. One moment. [Part stalling as she debates something but also grabbing two books and putting them into Mikado's bag with a smile.] Those are what I started out reading. I'm sure you'll find them interesting regardless if you decide to pursue magic or not.

[And Lion takes another book for herself. Small addiction mixed with a desperate need for things to do, really. She sets the candle down as she steps into the hallway. No one out here. So after hesitating, she glances at Mikado.]

Forgive me for prying but...it sounds like a lot happened between you and Masaomi-san. Is that why you're worried now...?

[He doesn't protest, he'll probably start reading them today. Maybe he can ask Matthis about it all later! The man seemed a bit grumpy though.]

I'll tell you what I think of them. [Though Lion's grabbing a lot of books. It's not like he has any reason to be concerned though. He reads a lot these days too.]

[Her question is distracting anyway.]

...Yeah. I guess. I mean, yes it is. But please don't worry about it.

[Lion shuts the door behind them. Not that she can lock it but well open doors are a hazard. She smiles a little at him as they start to walk.]

Please, you're both my friends. I think worrying about a friend is natural or at least...it shows you care. Maybe talking about it can help you. I don't know if I'll have any good advice but...voicing your concerns can sometimes make it easier to think of a solution, too.

[Though she blushes lightly.] I'm sorry if that's prying or too bold. But if I can help even by listening, I'd be quite happy to.

No it's not prying. Um, I really appreciate it actually. Basically... There's a lot about Masaomi I didn't know. But I don't think he wants to talk about it either, so I don't really know what to do, I guess.

Well, it's not like I think it's a big problem. But we used to talk about everything really openly. I'm at fault too though, he's not the only one who kept secrets.

Sometimes I think it's okay like this too, it's not like there's really anything wrong. And it isn't as if a little bit of oddness isn't expected after everything, either.

[For a moment, it's just their footsteps as Lion considers the matter. It's pretty serious and also not something she totally understands. All she knows comes from putting together weird statements in retrospect and Mikado's head trauma ramble.]

But...you're both uneasy. Maybe things are usually okay but that anxious feeling won't go away with time. If you both hid things, you're both at fault. That you can admit to that is a good first step...the hard part is talking about it now. Even I've noticed that Masaomi-san doesn't like to talk about what's bothering him. If he can't with his best friend of all people...

[Not that Lion is always so open, either, but she likes to think she wouldn't hide much. It reminds her a little of Will and how it feels like a struggle to get a straight answer.] Have you apologised for hiding things? He should, too, but nothing will happen unless someone does first. If he feels hurt or betrayed...maybe hearing that will help.

Though... [Lion frowns and bites her thumbnail in thought.] It would still be hard since he'd rather be dismissive than talk about his feelings. It would be easier if people could talk openly. Even I'm a hypocrite there.

I'm also... Not really good at noticing when he's bothered. Probably better than I was several months ago but...

[Even Mikado knows he can be oblivious. Now that it's been pointed out to him, anyway.]

I don't think I ever got the chance to apologize, now that you mention it. Maybe... I'll start with that. I'm worried that maybe I'm the only one feeling uneasy, too.

I think Masaomi-san feels the same way you do. Just how he acted when we were hurt makes me think so. I'm not very good at noticing if someone is hurt, either. Or rather...I often have a problem of noticing and not saying anything anyway.

[Which is more out of politeness and not wanting to hurt people even if she thinks talking is good and sigh. Lion rubs the back of her hand.]

You can't back down easily though if you decide to talk to him. I...worry sometimes that I don't pry enough with him. That he won't tell me if he's hurting and I won't notice or become too afraid to say anything. [Lion smiles a little at him.] But I'm certain if it was you, everything would work out well. Whatever happened in the past, you're together now.

What do you mean?

[Because Mikado is kind of dumb about picking up cues.]

At least you notice. Which is something. I think most people sometimes have a problem speaking up, but knowing you should is a start.

[He smiles, still a little uncertain.] I hope so. There's a lot we need to talk about but I wanted us to do it together with Sonohara-san...

[Lion pats his shoulder, giving a light squeeze.] I understand. Especially since she is involved, too. But...in this situation, even though she might appear tomorrow or you may both go home in a week, it's too uncertain to put off making up, right?

As far as Masaomi-san's cues go... [She tries not to grin.] It reminded me of the family conferences. He was so upset and worried but since he couldn't say so openly, he was indirect and ah, snide. Actually it was a little endearing in retrospect.

You're right...

[But even though she's right, how does he bring it up with Masaomi? He sighs.]

I think I got that but... He was really upset. That was actually pretty obvious for him I think. I hate to say it, but sometimes I'm not sure I know how to read him at all. Even if we've been best friends since we were kids, it's not like we saw each other in person for many years. He changed a lot. Maybe I did too.

I hadn't thought it mattered for a long time.

Edited 2011-11-10 09:56 (UTC)

[Lion stops walking to focus on him for a moment. It is a conversation that deserves some attention and there's no one around anyway.]

Hm...my cousin, Battler-kun...we've been best friends since we were very small. At one point, though, he left the family for a little while. Apparently he usually leaves for longer, in the other worlds...well, that doesn't matter. The point is that he left. I called him as much as I could but he needed some space. I eventually managed to convince him to come back but it took...a couple of years. When he came back...he was still Battler-kun. I thought so, anyway.

[Looking up at the high ceiling.] But he was different, too. And so was I. We'd all changed in that time and despite how easily we could play and act like kids again, there were jarring moments when I would realise it wasn't the same. It was...scary to think someone I was so close to could be different from my memories. So I got to know him again. Maybe...you two need to get to know each other again, too.

[He stops as well of course, considering what she's saying.]

I see. Maybe that's what it is. I thought we had... But maybe I wasn't noticing at all.

I think I just assumed that because we still talked almost every day, I still knew a lot about him. Now it feels like I don't at all. Have I focused too much on my own worries and missed things that trouble him as well? I wonder that too.

Even if I ask, he may not want to answer, either. I call him my best friend, but there's a lot about him I don't know. That's pretty sad, isn't it?

It might be. I love my family dearly and yet I was oblivious to so much. It's a little pathetic, especially considering I was supposed to become the Head and take care of them. But I still love them and if I get to see them again, I'm going to do my best to help and not look away.

[She places a hand on her chest, over where her ring hangs, playing with it a little through her shirt.]

If I may...you probably have missed a lot in that case. Please don't feel guilty, though. Masaomi-san probably wasn't making it easy, either. We all say 'don't worry', right? I've been thinking of this place as a second chance but maybe it's good for you two, too. You can fix things together without worrying about everything at home. This sort of chance is a miracle itself. So please...do everything you can to become best friends again. I'll help too if I can.

I guess we both get wrapped up and don't notice things we should... I hope you get to see your family again, and make things right.

I'll try to find time to talk to Masaomi. I just... Have to figure out what to say I guess. It probably won't help if I ask to talk and I don't even know what I'm getting at myself.

You've already helped me a lot. I can't ask for more. But... I will say thank you very much. He means a lot to hear you encourage me like this. I'll do my best to figure out what's wrong with Masaomi, and make up with him. So we can fix things together.

You can always ask for help. As you're both my friends, it matters to me, too.

[And this time Lion reaches out for his hand and holds it for a moment of encouragement.]

If you want to talk about what to say to him, I'll listen. But I'm certain you'll think of the right words. In the meantime, we can both work on being a little less ignorant. If not for our own sake, then at least for the sake of our friends.

[THE AMAZING ZELOS APPEARS FROM THE SKY

No wait he isn't silly like Guy. But he does appear, and he has a bouquet of flowers in his hand. Just guess why he is here. Guess.]

Yo, Lion. [Zelos doesn't immediately begin harassing Lion purely because he doesn't know what Mikado knows.] You're here again, huh?

[Mikado does not know the guy, despite two of his friends being involved with him. Derp derp. So he just blinks and nods politely to the stranger and remains awkwardly silent.]

[Lion looks between the flowers and Zelos. Also aware that he's being cautious. Aw, that's so considerate of him. She probably has a small derpy smile for a second.

And then she rolls her eyes and huffs.] And you're here for your usual purpose, I see. At least flowers are a traditional gift. Though I thought they were for me.

[She flashes a smile. You're safe to be, well, yourself, Zelos. And she takes Mikado's hand again to formally introduce them.]

Ah but this is Mikado-san. Mikado-san, this is my friend, Zelos. He'll have no interest in you, I'm afraid.

[Well-judged, Lion. Zelos only gives Mikado a cursory glance. It's a boy. It's young. It's not his concern.]

Could it be that you're getting jealous, hunny? That jealousy is so attractive in you. Why don't we ditch this kid and I show you just how attractive you are?

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