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[Mairu keens again, her hold on Ange tightening as Ange speaks. All the words are comforting and also painful. She feels really lost, and like she's cracked and if she lets go or Ange lets go she'll definitely shatter.]

[It feels good to cry though, because if she doesn't let it out she'll break too. Nothing's really fixed, but Ange says things that make sense. Everything's confusing.]

Ange-nee r-really is a witch. A good witch.

[She doesn't know how to articulate everything she feels is wrong. She's used to saying what's on her mind, but it's so jumbled even she can't begin to voice it.]

I have Ange-nee and Kida-senpai and I'm still really lonely. Kuru-nee and I never needed friends because we had each other, but I have friends now and not Kuru-nee.

[She wants both. Is it wrong to want both? It's not like there weren't people in her life, like Aoba and Shizuo and Eijirou and Akane-chan, but friends like Ange and Kida...? Not the same.]

[Hell, she even wants her brother right now. She must be really losing it.]

Do you have a spell to make it stop hurting, Ange-nee?

[The answer is probably no, but she feels five years old and pitiful.]

[If it's any comfort, Ange isn't letting go of her at all. Her embrace is pretty strong and sure for someone who doesn't exactly do this a lot. But then she's never had anyone really come to her for comfort, either.]

...I don't know a spell like that. Maria onee-chan...made up a lot of different spells, though, to do the same thing. [Ange keeps the hold tight and slides her fingers up into Mairu's hair, giving soothing strokes.] Being lonely...is probably the hardest one to break.

[She tries to think hard what Maria would say now. Even if she summons the Maria in her heart, without Maria's diary, it feels incomplete and wrong.]

...Why don't you keep a diary? You can write it out to Kururi, that other part of you. When you write down words, those become magic, too. I'll sign the diary as a witness. Then your feelings will definitely be together in everything you write. She'd be happy, wouldn't she? That she didn't miss anything, because you used that to keep it all for her.

[Slowly, maybe because she's crying herself out for now, or Ange's words and comfort are soothing her at last, or a combination, Mairu nods. Her grip doesn't loosen at all, but she is quieter.]

A diary...?

[Keeping a journal, writing to Kururi... That sounds... She's not sure. It sounds a little frightening, because writing to Kururi is acknowledging she'd really not here, but then again, it's a connection to her sister as well, and that way she could give it to Kururi and her sister would be able to catch up on everything...]

Yeah... I want to. I want to do that.

[She keeps her close anyway, still comforting her as best as she can. Whether she's just cried out or feels better, just crying probably did actually help.]

I have a spare one in my dresser, if you want to use it. When she gets to read through it, it'll be like you lived through everything together. So...keep a good record for her, all right? There won't be a gap between you then.

[Mairu nods again, face still buried in Ange's shoulder.]

I'll write down everything. Than Kuru-nee will know everything.

[Because she'll definitely see her sister again. Soon! Mairu sniffles, squeezing Ange suddenly, because comforting.]

Thank you Ange-nee.

[Ange would get it right now but she's not moving until Mairu is feeling up to it. So she keeps holding her and smiles a little.]

...It's what a sister should do. [Maybe the diary won't help forever but it's something for now, so she's glad. And she doesn't mind being Ange-nee if it helps. Especially when... Mairu and Kida feel like some sort of family to her.]

You're a good sister.

[She's still crying, but she's a little more coherent. At least on the surface. None of her issues are really resolved, but Ange said she's Mairu so... She is Mairu, right?]

So are you.

[She doubts it would be so easy to fix this. But it's all she can do for now. To help a little more, though, Ange puts a hand in Mairu's hair and focuses. It isn't like she has to say those words every time and Mairu can't see it as her hair repairs itself to how it was. But it's something to remind her that she's Mairu.]

...There. That's how it was, right?

[Mairu lifts her hands to touch her hair, surprised enough that she stops sobbing, though the tears still fall.]

Ange-nee... Th-that's really amazing!

[Ange smiles a little. Even if it doesn't stop her tears, it's a little distraction.]

I thought it might make you feel a little better. I know, uhm...for me, having my hair like this is important to who I am.

Dance magic dance

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