gocirclegogo | Wasted and wounded, it ain't what the moon did

[It's been a few days since the...incident with Kumagawa. Thanks to Sei things turned out better than they could have, but it still isn't something Touya could just recover from. He's spent these last few days in his room, avoiding contact with others as much as possible, not eating or talking, barely even responding to anything. Today, Audi finally kicked him out of the room to eat something.

Flatmates can find him poking about for food and making a small and simple snack. He still isn't very hungry, but health is important.

Later on, he ventures out to the streets. With the seal back in its proper place, Bouffalant wasn't really conscious enough to follow Touya, so now Touya's out looking for the buffafro that's been meandering through the streets for days. They'll find eachother eventually, they always do.

Finally, after he's found his buffalo, Touya can be found in a park or other relatively peaceful part of London. He's sitting with his eyes closed, back against the large Pokemon, just listening to everything around him. His head's been ringing ever since that event, maybe if he focuses and listens he can find the cause. He's still too jittery for this to look like meditation though.]

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Yes. Kumagawa is very much the same.

[Kind of a coward tbh. But all of them were. It's not a bad thing, not inherently.]

H-He didn't seem like it.

[He kept going even after Bouffalant ripped his arm off. That doesn't seem very cowardly.]

Without divulging many details, I will say that he certainly is!

[Always running away. Always showing off.]

Perhaps you should refrain from running away! That sort of person -- has likely never made any attempt to make friends. How could he be so certain, if he has never tried?

[How do you know you can't make friends, if you won't try?]

There is nothing to be gained through hiding from yourself forever.

I-It can't. I know it c-cant. Beause...because when I'm like that...I can't see friends or enemies. Anything still moving is just a "target". Th-There's no concern for anything but fighting and destruction.

[If there were? His parents might still be alive.]

I see little reason that you can not be made to see.

[He shakes his head.] N-No. Once the seal comes off...there's no reasoning with me.

Forgive me if I have my doubts, Mr Touya.

[Because, between the three, four, whatever amount of friends she actually has now of them, they can do anything. She is confident in this.]

[There's an extremely bitter laugh, then. You've obviously never heard of any kind of Berserker before, then.]

It's, it's true. Without the seal...It's like I'm not even human anymore. B-Because that's how Berserkers work - reason, p-planning, strategy, friends, family, sense, self-preservation, even sanity...all of that is sacrificed for power.

... And that is who you are?

No! [He's rejecting that side of himself outright. Your logic doesn't suit him.]

That's...I said before, that's...not the kind of person I am...b-but that's what happens without the seal. [He's fiddling with his ring a bit.]

Then that is the sort of person that you are.

No! I-It isn't, that's not... That isn't true! I-I won't accept that! [Congratulations, you have him crying, shaking, and almost screaming. His arms wrap over his head as he cringes again.]

[......... But

why are you upset I didn't do anything wrong???]

It is... the truth, isn't it? If that is the sort of person that you became, then that is the sort of person that you truly are. It's really very simple!

[You hit him with the truth a few too many times.]

N-No, no! I'm not, I'm-- That isn't me! I'm not that monster! [...He's been called one a few too many times, and since he orphaned himself? He has to put in a bit of effort to convince himself he isn't.]

You aren't a monster, Sir! You are just as human as myself or Kumagawa.

[So either wholly or not very, depending on who's asking.]

I-I'm not a monster... I'm not... [He's less hysteric now, but still pretty upset. He's trying to force himself to calm down. Extreme emotions can override the seal, after all.]

... Yes, that is what I said.

[...Give him a moment.

There we go.]

S-Sorry, I don't...usually have outbursts like that. It's been a bad week.

Do cheer up, Sir! It mustn't be all bad, hm?

It's been...pretty bad. I've had worse, but... I've spent the whole week listening to a huge rip in my soul. It's...almost as... [Words. What word can he use? uh...] ...difficult as hearing Them, I guess.

... That is not difficult.

I mean difficult as in...hard on me. [He'll wipe at one of his ears again for emphasis, and to check if they're still bleeding.] It's...not the easiest thing to listen to for extended periods of time.

[...... oh. for you.

right, people. are different.]

I highly doubt that there is anything broken, Mr Touya. As I've said, I am doing quite well!

It...might just be because my world is...different, then. Since...my soul isn't just mine.

Or perhaps you are mistaken!

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